Now...I am not writing this blog post because I want to, or rather have to. Tonight I am sorting letters and sentences in an orderly fashion because I have two tests waiting for me tomorrow afternoon and I really don’t want to study. So this right here is my” procrastination haven”
with my 2 longest surviving friends; Hardus(left) Ruan(right) few people has the patience with me like these legends |
A few nights
ago a young lady on campus asked me a question that made me think for a
while... I couldn’t answer her directly (which is a strange phenomenon for me).
The question
was: “Martin, what is the worst thing about being a third culture kid?”
After musing
by myself, out loud of course, I came to the conclusion that the most difficult
aspect of my childhood was the fact that I never had long-term friendships. All
my friends were easy disposable. And it definitely affects my social attitude
today as a young adult.
...Haters
gonna hate...
The problem
with moving around quite often is, (besides the fact that it is rated as the 2nd
most stressful traumatic event in an individual’s life. 1st being
the death of a person close to you) cutting your relationships.
Let us be
honest with each other; yes you always tell your friends you will keep in
touch. In fact the social media has made it so much easier for us to keep in
touch with old friends. But it is not the same. If you had the privilege to
meet up with a friend you haven’t seen in a decade I can promise you the
chances are you will be disappointed. People change all the time. You change
constantly! The people you relate to now will not necessarily be the same
people in ten years.
So let’s go
back to disposable friends. I am being brutally honest with this topic and I
hope somewhere somehow you can relate to me or else I need to see a
psychiatrist for fears of having social-sadistic behaviours.
I used to ( I
guess I still do) make friends with the preconception that I will not have a
relationship with them after 4 years max. Attaching an expiry date to
relationships was and still is an easy way to move on when the time comes. As a family we tend to move every 3-4 years.
Not because we plan it that way but it seems like our wheel of life takes about
4 years for good spin.
The moving around part is easy. But trying to find
disposable friends is the real hard part... the next time you see your friends
at your varsity, pub or where ever, just try to put an expiry date to them. It
will be difficult at first (whatever you do, do not tell them their dates!
Unless it’s a TCK, or an asshole which most probably is the same person)
because if you are not a Machiavellian character from a Shakespearean play then
it shouldn’t be natural. We as humans try to build long term relationships...
However not getting too attached does have its
advantageous. You can walk away from a
draining friendship with little or no remorse. You can build quick
relationships and you learn to depend on yourself.
The most important lesson I learned as TCK was; never
attach sentimental value to people. Keep your expectations as low as possible
so that you will be surprised rather disappointed.
In 3 months time I will visit Turkey. I haven’t been
there for more than 6 years. Many of my friends in the country invited me to
stay over at their places. But I know that these are not the same people I have
left. I cannot expect to catch up with them from where we left. Who knows, by
keeping my expectations low, I might be surprised?
So I conclude
this blog post on a flat note because I couldn’t think of any sarcastic
statement. Well my books are waiting for me at my desk; I guess I should stop
moaning about the lost friendships in my live and start studying. Who knows...
maybe one day I will become a successful and rich International trader
surrounded with many disposable friends and I shall refer to them as “contacts”
and the act of obtaining them “networking”.
Hardus would pretty much give Ethiopians a run for their height!
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